A photo of the bombing of Helsinki. This shows the main building of Helsinki University burning during the night. See the rest of the newly released photos of Finland in WWII here.
Late-ish Night Reflecting
Saw some sights I will never forget today. Nature abounds.
Also, my roommate is moving out. It is all very sad and the house is getting emptier and packed away little by little.
There is a strange frequency resonating with this storm. I’m feeling numerous emotions only in my head; it’s all very matter of fact, which I think has been a slow transition I’ve been working with the last few weeks.
I am also very much looking forward to seeing folks I haven’t seen in a very long time this coming weekend. I have been working through a lot of love of appreciation for those who have shaped my life thus far, trying to determine how best to share that love and appreciation with them and with others.
There is a lot of burden and potential that comes with a gift as great and rare as human life. I think about this all too often.
We have almost the same birthmarks on opposite sides XD I’m not sure I’ve ever seen anyone else similar :D
Training: Week 12
This week was ‘aight.
- Maanantai (Mon): —-
- Tiistai (Tues): —-
- Keskiviikko (Wed): Ran 2 miles keeping between an 8:00/8:30 min/mile pace. Sauna. 63 push ups (14, 14, 10, 10, 15
- Torstai (Thurs): Ran 2 miles again, this time straddling a 7:41/8:20 pace. Also, had a sauna and did some free weight work.
- Perjantai (Fri): —-
- Lauantai (Sat): 71 push ups (14, 16, 12, 12, 17)
- Sunnuntai (Sun): —-
So, whenever you find yourself putting forth great effort without success, you’re trying to force something that won’t fit under the circumstances. That’s a destructive waste of time. And if that isn’t enough to keep in mind, your techniques must always be allowed to evolve and change, in relationships, in life, in science, in society. Otherwise you stagnate, and you won’t get anywhere in the long run… You know what the philosopher Aldous Huxley said? He said ‘Consistency is contrary to nature, contrary to life. The only completely consistent people are the dead
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| — | Tony Vigorito |
I must say a word about fear. It is life’s only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unerring ease. It begins in your mind, always. One moment you are feeling calm, self-possessed, happy. Then fear, disguised in the garb of mild-mannered doubt, slips into your mind like a spy. Doubt meets disbelief and disbelief tries to push it out. But disbelief is a poorly armed foot soldier. Doubt does away with it with little trouble. You become anxious. Reason comes to do battle for you. You are reassured. Reason is fully equipped with the latest weapons technology. But, to your amazement, despite superior tactics and a number of undeniable victories, reason is laid low. You feel yourself weakening, wavering. Your anxiety becomes dread. Fear next turns fully to your body, which is already aware that something terribly wrong is going on. Already your lungs have flown away like a bird and your guts have slithered away like a snake. Now your tongue drops dead like an opossum, while your jaw begins to gallop on the spot. Your ears go deaf. Your muscles begin to shiver as if they had malaria and your knees to shake as though they were dancing. Your heart strains too hard, while your sphincter relaxes too much. And so with the rest of your body. Every part of you, in the manner most suited to it, falls apart. Only your eyes work well. They always pay proper attention to fear. Quickly you make rash decisions. You dismiss your last allies: hope and trust. There, you’ve defeated yourself. Fear, which is but an impression, has triumphed over you. The matter is difficult to put into words. For fear, real fear, such as shakes you to your foundation, such as you feel when you are brought face to face with your mortal end, nestles in your memory like a gangrene: it seeks to rot everything, even the words with which to speak of it. So you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don’t, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.
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| — | Life of Pi, Chapter 56 |
Prophetic/Insightful Dream
After a break in space/time, I was visited by 3 animals last night in a dream. The first of which visited me in real life minutes after waking.
Theme: Time (there was a rift in space/time I was trying to repair)
To dream about time indicates your fears of not being able to cope with the pressures and stresses of everyday life.
- Centipede (the “warning animal” of the rift) To see a centipede in your dream suggests that you are letting your fears and doubts hinder you from making progress and achieving your goals. You need to stop thinking negative thoughts.
- Rabbit (I had to care for it, make sure no harm came to it) Rabbits symbolize abundance, warmth, fertility and sexual activity. Perhaps your sex life needs to be kept in check. If the rabbit is hopping in your dream, then it indicates fertility. You will be surrounded by children. Alternatively, the dream may be analogous to your lack of commitment and how you jump from one thing or another.
- Wolf (I had to ensure it did not escape or harm others) To see a wolf in your dream symbolizes survival, beauty, solitude, mystery, self-confidence and pride. You are also a loner by choice. Negatively, the wolf represents hostility, aggression, or sneakiness. It may reflect an uncontrollable situation or an all-consuming force in your life. This could point to an obsession, an addiction or something that is beyond your control.
